complicated
June 7, 2010
that song hurts as much as that.
one is a memory, while the other a reminder.
i told her, there is always an alternative. it sounds positive, but i hope i dun have to go for that.
i couldn’t sleep the whole night ytd. coz, 1. mosquitoes, 2. i designed too much before i sleep and lastly, i just cant.
nisha say everyone is a book. but i dun read books. i prefer to create them, with images and not words.
i feel like a hamster,
going round and round in that wheel.
i duno where am i going,
but i just continue running.
till the day i get tired,
i’ll stop and rest.
but continue the day after,
because i duno where to go best.
*i’m tired…very tired. goodnight*
i lose to myself
May 23, 2010
tdy was a successful sharing in the soka meeting. i’m glad i shared my testmonial and my family members said i did a great job ((8 so happy.
thank you gohonzon thank you! (8
it’s hard to control. and i know if i dun let it out..i’ll never be okay.
but i never let them drop down. altho i lose to myself and i break my own promise…i wont let it go too far.
i looked into the mirror, i do not like the person inside tt mirror. she’s not happy, she not pretty, she’s silly. she’s me.
my big sis said that the first step to learn to love urself is to love ur own reflection in the mirror. but now…i do not like it at all. ugly, weak, crybaby, disappointed, not positive at all.
yes i’ve thought thru and thanks to yar’s advice…but tt little bit of feeling in me is still making chaos. and i have to get rid of it by venting out my emotions. i’m prepared, so let’s be alright. shall we? ((8
*i dare not make any wish upon anything*
